I find no meaning in my job. I can't wait to leave it. I donated most of my money to the disasters. I wish i could do more to help. i wish i was a doctor. the only thing i can do is act as an interpreter, should medicin sans frontier and red cross foreign doctors needs translators, but i might end up being a hindrance on the spot, given that i'm not the calmest person.

Speaking to Yang yesterday made me want to cry. He lives 90km from the epi centre. As we speak the ground is trembling beneath him. at least 1000 aftershocks in a day. His neighbours were sleeping in cars outside, but he decides to sleep at home. He can't really tell me more, but he was stuck in the lift when it occurred. Thank god he and his family are alright.

There is positive news in the overall gloom. China's response to quake is unusually open and Aid has reached the people in need as of the latest news.

Last night i was at a sustainable development forum meeting like minded green folks. There is hear say that the forces of feng shui are at play and there is a lake in China that has marked the important events by drying up in 1949, 1976 (tang shan earthquakes taking the lives of over 200,000), 1989, and this year 2008. Monday was the 88th day before this year Summer Olympics set to open on August 8 2008, the dates chosen for it's auspicious numbers. I have the really interesting "earthquake omens" here and the lake that dried up. all 80 tons of the water...

I wish I could do much more and I am controlling my intense emotions from taking control of my life as these events are completely beyond my control. I should think about doing a nursing course, brush up on one of the south east asian language, maybe learn malay so i could be of some use in times of disaster in the region.

I'm sorry this entry is so low. Here is a nice animation to lift the spirits.


MUTO a wall-painted animation by BLU from blu on Vimeo.